Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/
Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.
I wonder if my bladder issue is something like this. There is no limit to what can be affected by Fibromyalgial
Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/
Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.
While I don’t know particularly what the main cause of my Fibromyalgia is there are so many things that could have caused it and perhaps it is a combination of many. Stress is one of the many causes. And when stressed it causes major flare-ups.
Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/
Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.
Due to my upcoming steroid injection in my knee on Tuesday I had to cut out any pain killer that is an NSAID. If used it could cause dangerous bleeding. So by cutting out my Meloxicam, the pain became worse.
I have spent most of the last few days in bed. Laying down is less painful than sitting. If I had a couch I could sit with my legs straight, but since I don’t have one, sitting in a 4 legged chair or my computer chair is quite painful.
My knee is not the only painful area. My back is still a problem. I still feel my spine moving and popping. My whole body is an issue.
I mentioned that I was losing my therapist and then the whole office was closing down. My last appointment was last Tuesday, well I slept right through it. In a way, I am glad, since that eliminated the emotional part. I figure since I am not in a panic, that things are good and maybe it is time to let it go for good.
I still have my psychiatric nurse who prescribes my medications for my mental issues and is willing to talk if I need it. She does therapy too, but way out of my budget.
I can’t take much more of this pain and need to lie down again. The longer I am without my NSAID the worse my arthritis pain gets. Getting there on Tuesday and then having only a local anesthetic I am going to really be in pain. I can’t be knocked out unless I go to a surgical center or the hospital due to my BMI since I am obese. I have been knocked out with no problems, but new laws won’t allow it done in a procedure center at the pain management office. If what they give me is an anesthetic I would hate to have it without. The pain is tremendous. They tell me it will just feel like a bee sting. I would like that bee to sting them. That is the worse bee sting I have ever had.
My neighbor is driving me home. I drove myself last time. It was possible, but having someone drive you is much more comfortable. My dad used to drive me before he had a stroke.
Can’t wait until it is over.
Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/
Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.
Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/
Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.
There are times when just clothing brushing my skin or my bedding as I try to sleep hurt a lot. Even a hug can hurt.
Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/
Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.
The tears are coursing down my cheek,
The pain is bad, I am not weak.
My foot is numb, my hands are too.
The pain is like the turn of the screw.
I cannot stand nor walk you see.
Somewhere else I’d rather be.
I can’t lie down, or sit upright,
What can I do, this isn’t right!
To my Lord I do pray
Give me strength that I may stay.
I shouldn’t have to live like this
No one should I loudly hiss.
Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh
-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses
-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems
http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).
This is very problematic for those of us who are writers. Sometimes I sit and just struggle to find the word I am looking for. The sentence I created is just way off and I know I have to find the word I am missing. Very frustrating.
Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
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I think this is what started this severe case of pain a year and a half ago. I joined the gym for Silver Sneakers which was free with my Aetna Medicare (other medicare advantage plans carry it too, check yours). It was supposed to be for seniors so I figured it would be really easy. It wasn’t and all they did was make sure everyone had a chair just in case they needed it.
By the 6th week, I was in intense pain. I hadn’t gotten used to exercising at all. That worried me a bit and then I lost feeling on the whole left side of my body and ended up in the hospital with pinched nerves in my neck and back. It aggravated my degenerative disc disease and arthritis as well. It had been about 7 years since I had gone through the whole thing before only now things have degenerated more,
It has been a year and a half and I am just getting worse rather than better. I am now taking the only Fibromyalgia medication I never tried before, Lyrica. I am in major Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome flares. Life sucks and I have to pretend that all is well. the Chronic Fatigue has me in bed almost 24 hours now. I get up shortly and right back to bed and I am out like a light. I can’t do anything.
Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
This is the current problem I am having. Not only clothes are painful, but coving up my legs with a cover at bedtime is painful.
Tessa –
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
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