Are alternative healings just the placebo effect?

As I have mentioned my dad has done faith healing for as long as I can remember and his people that received the healings (including me) believed they were being healed. I am well aware of the placebo effect and I can’t say for sure that he is healing me or that I just expect to feel better. I believe the point is that it helps and I don’t need a scientific ruling to say it is true or false. I accept that I feel better, therefore his healing helped.

Healing can be done hands-on or from afar. Reiki is one of those types of healings.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

By Meera Lester – “365 Ways To Live The Law Of Attraction”

I have mentioned the Law of Attraction time and again. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. This  book has 365 ways (or days if you wish) of info. I will post some things if I think them relevant to positivity. Mainly that is what I am more interested in.

I understand the law of attraction. What you project out into the universe you draw to you. Think positive thoughts and you will attract positive people and things to you. Project the bad thoughts and that is what you will attract. As someone put it, whining about my pain and unhappiness will just draw more towards me.  I understand this, but it is very hard not to think negative thoughts when your life basically sucks and my pain is unbearable.

I have had many discussions with my dad about these subjects and a lot of other ones many of you may not believe in. And that’s ok, we are all different and have different beliefs.

Part of me wonders if I am being punished for something I did in a past life. Then again it could be this life. I have done some things that I knew were morally wrong and I feel wicked at times for having lived through some of the things I did in my life.

God has a plan for us and mine isn’t particularly pleasant this time around (if you believe in re-incarnation). And from what I have learned we will relive certain lives until we have learned the lessons God has set out for us. You will repeat a lesson until you learn it.

God bless us all!

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Epidural done yesterday, feeling much better

The local anesthesia was the worst part. Didn’t feel the actual steroid injection. By the time I got my pain pill a couple of hours later it took a couple of hours to start feeling better.

I could turn over in bed without the resulting pain and this morning getting out of bed was easier. I can walk easier, not all stiff and little steps as I did with that terrible pain. I haven’t felt this well in decades.

Ruby I kept your prayer cloth in my pocket right next to where they were working. It gave me comfort. Thank you to you and your church for praying for me.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (no longer canceling this blog, just not adding new work to it, sign up for http://www.tessacandoit.com for the new posts).

Affirmations: Soaking in God’s Love. Guided Prayer for Absorbing Divine Light–Relaxing and Healing!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (no longer canceling this blog, just not adding new work to it, sign up for http://www.tessacandoit.com for the new posts).

Affirmations:”God, Give Me Guidance.” Affirmations for Divine Guidance and Help.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (no longer canceling this blog, just not adding new work to it, sign up for http://www.tessacandoit.com for the new posts).

Pain is Weird

Pain is weird. I was pain-free for a few days and now it is back, but on the other side of my body. I can’t figure it out. I was so relieved there for a few days and boom, just like that, it is back again.

I can’t figure out if too much movement is the cause, not enough is the cause or that there is no specific reasoning behind it,

I have spent the last few days calling the 2 doctors offices trying to get an appointment for the required EKG. I finally got one today at the very last minute before the procedure. Well slight exaggeration there. The procedure is Tuesday, but no time yet and so need Monday to wait for the time. The EKG is set for the last appointment on Friday afternoon. The day they close early.

I will plan on leaving the house early just in case of problems and just wait in the parking lot for awhile and then in the waiting room. I can’t take any issues such as road construction, detours and such. I was hoping to not have to have it. I really felt better than I had for over the last 7 years, but now it is back.

I just made a payment plan for the MRI’s I had and had to sign a paper so luckily my dad agreed to drive it to the post office for me. I had eased off a little on the pain pills and perhaps that had something to do with it.

I am sitting here in pain. Lying down was feeling better. May be up and down all night till bedtime. I have also had bad stomach pains the last couple of days. Not sure which hurts worse.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (no longer canceling this blog, just not adding new work to it, sign up for http://www.tessacandoit.com for the new posts).

Divine Intervention and Pain

As I mentioned my dad does faith healing and has been doing divine intervention on my back and neck pain and pinched nerves. The pain is going away slowly although I will have an occasional flare-up.

Today is one of those days. It was fine all day, but I went grocery shopping and the bags were just too much and gave me pain, but on the opposite side from where it has been residing for the last couple of months. Obviously lifting is not a good thing to do at this point.

I spent all day trying to get one doctor’s office to fax a script over to my PCP so I can have the EKG done so I can have the epidural procedure done. Complete waste of time and calling. I call the pain dr and the girl says I am faxing it now and takes all the info down again. I wait a couple of hours because the girl at my PCP’s office says she will call as soon as she receives it and we will schedule the appointment and I can’t schedule it until they have it in hand. Seems simple enough, but not working.

I also had an upset stomach all day which didn’t help. Time is running out for the EKG to be scheduled in time for the epidural procedure which is November 14. Maybe it has a purpose. Maybe I don’t need to have it done at all. Would be great if the healing worked well enough to cancel the epidural. Save me money and a shot in the spine I can do without.

I grew up with Divine Interventional Healing. I also grew up in the psychic world and even see things myself and have predicted several things that have happened exactly as I saw them. Scary dreams have double the power of scaring me as they do at times come true, plus they are scary.

I am stuck between two worlds/universes. Stuck with a full belief in angels, ghosts, mediums, psychics and predicting the future and in the traditional belief in God which is becoming stronger. i do believe they can both live together in this world.

We have always believed in re-incarnation, but recently since my mom passed doubts have set in. My dad believes in other lives, but he also believes that my mom and the rest of the family will be in heaven waiting to welcome him. This is a rough one. He is living with the hope that he will see them all again, but he also believes we live many lives.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (no longer canceling this blog, just not adding new work to it, sign up for http://www.tessacandoit.com for the new posts).

Affirmations: “God, Give Me Confidence and Courage” Strength through God Affirmations

Another good relaxing affirmation.

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Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (no longer canceling this blog, just not adding new work to it, sign up for http://www.tessacandoit.com for the new posts).

No point in asking…

Why me? There is no point in asking as there is no answer forthcoming. If you believe in re-incarnation you could say I am paying for one hell of a sin.

The only thing I know is that I can barely stand it anymore. The pain pills are not helping or my pain is worse than I thought.

I am using a cane now to walk and need support to pull myself up and down stairs. I can’t do it on my own. Getting out of bed is pure excruciating pain and almost impossible for me to do now.  I thought I knew what a 10 in the pain score meant before, but that is now a 15. Worse than childbirth at times and my 3 children were born naturally no pain relief. I have lived with chronic pain for over 40 years yet it is still possible to find pain that is worse than that.

Last time I went through this I didn’t think it could get worse, but it can. Oh it certainly can. I have heard good and bad things about surgery if they go that route. I could become totally immobile. Heck I almost am now. Not sure I like them messing with my spine. I won’t even let the chiropractor touch it anymore.

My Fibromyalgia is joining in on the fun. I am in full flare, pins and needles from that. numbness and pins and needles throughout my entire body from pinched nerves and Fibro. Arthritis running amuck. Some people have mild arthritis, but don’t know just how bad it can get. And it could be rheumatoid arthritis and worse so I shouldn’t complain too much I suppose. I would gather that is worse. Mine is inflamed and wrapped around my spine and squeezing.

They call it degenerative for a reason. It will not get better. It will continue to get worse. Talk about a life sentence.

My anxiety is super high even with meds. My bipolar is actually fairly stable at the moment so I am not dealing with my mental health being out of control. Thank God for small favors at least.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

Up and running, but not like before

I have my blog up and running again I am just not completely happy with out it turned out. Some of the widgets are missing and can’t be replaced they were pictures added by a html code and I no longer have them anywhere and some just won’t work. I can’t get my Facebook link to run. The space is there, it is filled out and maybe it will just appear. Crazier things have happened.

I am done with it for now and am going to write for a bit and maybe move a few poems or stories over from the other blog. Something to take my mind off the pain and the aggravation I have gone through for the last few hours.

I had my cervical MRI today and it really freaked me out when they locked me into a neck brace to hold me still. I am severely claustrophobic and even took twice the amount of anxiety medicine to try and keep from ending it early and having to redo it. It is done now and I hope that is the last of the tests for now. just waiting to see if pain management decides to do the steroid shots or feels surgery would be best. Back and neck surgery, fusion of discs etc could leave me even more immobile than I already am. I just have to put my faith in God that he will bring me through this situation safely and in a good way.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).