They egged my car AGAIN!

I have lived here since 2004 and this is the 2nd or 3rd time it has happened. I don’t know why. There were other cars on the street as well and one time they threw glass bottles under the car and my old (as in very old age) neighbor helped me pick up the glass and had called to let me know before I came out and drove away on top of the glass. I couldn’t see them from my house.

My son quipped, “if they throw eggs scramble them!” I retorted, “I prefer my eggs on a plate!”

There were some fancy, expensive cars on the road with mine, but it was me they aimed at.

My pain is getting worse and it will be several weeks to over a month until I can be rescheduled since I had gotten sick before the last procedure. I had a taste of no pain for a while, but now it is back. I lie down for quite a while when I can although that does tend to make me stiff.

My friend and I have switched our brunch day to Sundays rather than Saturdays. Less crowded and better vibes. We were getting aggravated on Saturdays.

Still waiting for the bankruptcy to go forward. I am very anxious. Working on not spending money and wasting gas if I don’t have to go anywhere. Working on setting up a budget as well.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Blood Sugars Still Dropping Despite Eating Carbs and Dropping Insulin

I had carbs last night, no shots, but the 34 units of slow acting Tresiba and my sugar was still low fasting. I wonder what part God plays in this. I would love to stop using insulin and be healed of Diabetes which is supposed to be not possible. This sudden drop in my numbers and the lack of need for the insulin is a miracle in itself. Last night I had regular cookies with sugar in them and low carb peanut butter cups plus a bowl of blueberries (fruit so sugar of course) and whipped cream that also contained sugar. And the black tea. Several cups a day.

Does the black tea play a part in this? Is it the daily faith healings? Is is something inside of me?

My sugars this morning were 65 which is low. This is all mighty strange, but so far so good. I would love to stop the needles and even stop pills. I know they say you can heal Diabetes, but you have to admit this is strange and I have added sugar back into my diet, not a lot, not to access, but sugar none-the-less.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Cold Survival With Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Cold never used to bother me as much as it does now. Now I feel it deep in my bones. At night I lie in bed shivering and can’t get warm. Nothing like feeling chilled to the bone. I sleep in flannel pjs and a heavy blanket and quilt plus a small space heater.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Opiates for Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

I find the percocets help with the Degenerative Disk Disease, but not so much with the Fibromyalgia or regular arthritis. I use Meloxicam (NSAID) for the arthritis. When I have to stop it 5 days before my epidurals (steroid injections) the pain intensifies and the percocets hardly help at that point.

Medications for these conditions can be difficult to work out.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Blood Sugars Still Staying Low

Low blood sugars all day til tonight, it was low (50), but I used the glucose tabs and then was so hungry I went crazy. It went up too high. So I had to take a shot. Need to figure out what is happening. Is it the black tea? Is it the healings my dad does on me everyday? Is my body fixing itself? I will have to back down the long acting insulin some and see if that helps.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Black tea and lower blood sugars

I have been drinking tea every day for days now, several cups a day. Last night I couldn’t keep my sugar up. Kept waking up low and had to have carbs without insulin. I am drinking black tea and it does help with sugar control according to research. The only insulin I had was the slow acting and it alone was dropping my blood sugars. No added insulin at meals today and none needed. My sugar levels are low. Not sure what to think. I am still getting daily healings from my dad plus this new research on black tea. Maybe I stumbled on something that will help my diabetes without using a lot of insulin. Black tea has a lot of good side effects according to my research.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Changing life

I slept all day after a lousy night, in which I couldn’t stop shaking. Dad said I could put the little heater on again. I forgot a whole pain pill time and combined with the lack of arthritis meds made it hard to move. Hours later and I am finally able to move. I didn’t even dress today. I am still in my flannel pjs.

Due to the snow we are not going to brunch again on Saturday. Maybe we will try Sunday.

December 16, 2017

Can’t sleep since I slept all day. I skipped a complete dose of percocets and was starting into detox. Quick got one in as I mentioned earlier.

Later in the day I checked my mail and I had a list of senior and disabled housing (not all subsidized) from the Division of Senior Services. My insurance provided me with a social worker and she asked me about my needs and fears so she gave me numbers and info and then even called them for me. It is a long list almost 2 full pages, but not all of them say subsidized on them and I hope all the ones listed under Gloucester County Housing are covered by the application I already filled out and have a confirmation number for.

I feel hopeful right now even though I know they have waiting lists. They are for seniors 62 (I am 61 til October) and/or the disabled (BINGO). I do dread the thought of filling out tons of applications right now.

It is nice to feel that surge of hope running through me since this bankruptcy has me really kind of down. Hopefully the bankruptcy won’t stop me from being eligible.

I am cooking dinner and writing this at the same time since I can carry the chromebook around.

I contacted Laura, my psych nurse, about changing my appointment and she says I am currently stable enough to wait several months, plus she knows I keep her advised as to how I am feeling.

I am starting to get used to cooking dinner again. I understand the seriousness of my situation and it is starting to sink in. Right now I am cooking bacon and eggs. First time in a long time I cooked the bacon in a pan and will use the juices (fat) to cook the eggs in.

I have been forgetting a pain pill, well actually sleeping through it. I feel the beginnings of detox and take it right away. Sugar numbers have been low and occasionally too low.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Lyrica for Fibromyalgia: How it Works

I tried all but the Lyrica. They either didn’t work or I had terrible side effects. I no longer use anything for my Fibromyalgia and that includes the narcotics. It doesn’t work on that pain just on my degenerative disk disease.

I have separate medications for my arthritis too and narcotics don’t work on my arthritis, I  use Meloxicam for that.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Bankruptcy is not easy or cheap

Eventually this should pay off, but right now it is downright difficult. Everytime I turn around there is another fee, some of which might be waived. Then they want more paperwork. The letter claims we discussed it, but I don’t remember it. I don’t know if it is my anxiety stopping me from remembering or the lawyer doing his standing thing without really having said it, but just thought he did, plus I have been through this before back in 2004.

Confused? Join the club.

In order to pay these additional fees I have to cancel all my dr appointments for the next couple of months. And that is just the the normal fees. If one or more of the creditors want to sue me, I would have to retain him at his hourly rate to have him defend me. That is not cheap. He charges $350 for each billable hour.

Of course I am anxious and can’t get his assistant on the phone. I am surprised I slept at all last night.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

My chromebook now prints

What a task. It took many websites through Google and 20 or so different youtube.com sites to put together a procedure that worked and it now prints. First I had to get my printer hooked up to our WIFI network. I couldn’t do it at first when I installed it for my old computer. So googled there too since the directions didn’t work.

I am slowly learning the more important tasks with the “Dummies” book, youtube.com and googling.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work, new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com