Wacky Wednesday Night

I had fried seafood for dinner tonight at Joe’s Crab Shack or something like that. I know fried foods aren’t good for me, but couldn’t resist. I checked my sugars and they weren’t so bad.

No cake today 😦 .

Think I forgot my 2nd dose of nasty adrenal support. My Latuda was late so let’s see if I can sleep tonight.

I am bored silly.

I am tired and gonna take my night time pills and settle down to read.

I just heard that Derek Hough, my favorite on “Dancing with the Stars,” has injured both feet and may not be able to dance for awhile.

Tessa

Effing Imbalanced Brain Chemicals

This is saying what I would like to say, but don’t have the nerve.

Take a Ride on My Mood Swing

Ever had someone tell you, a friend no less, that you are essentially useless?
Seems my numeric dyslexia, short term memory issues, and my poor eyesight and shaky hands make me too clumsy to even hold a flashlight properly. YES.
I cannot even hold a flashlight.
And I apparently do it so poorly, even someone who likes me feels compelled to tell me how incompetent I am.
Yay.

I read an article about this mom with a Downe’s Syndrome and the headline was: THE ONLY DISABILITY IS A BAD ATTITUDE.

Absofuckinlutely. My shaky hands, memory problems, it’s all just a bad attitude. Thanksomuch, I am cured.

I mean, I get the idea of not limiting a child by society’s mandates of “normalcy”, but at the same time…It does a disservice to people who are plagued with problems that interfere with their ability to manage basic functionality. It’s not like the…

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Ensuring Your Site is Mobile-Friendly

How to test to see if your blog is mobile-friendly. Both of mine are.

WordPress.com News

Today, Google released a change to its algorithm that gives higher search scores to sites it deems “mobile-friendly.” Curious WordPressers might be asking:

1. How can I be sure my site is mobile-friendly?
2. What can I do if my site is not mobile-friendly?

1. See if your site is mobile-friendly

Visit Google’s mobile-friendly test link and enter your site’s address (e.g., http://dailypost.wordpress.com or http://automattic.com). Google will then analyze your site and declare it mobile-friendly or not.

Did your site pass? YAY! Pass GO and collect $200 from the Community Chest.

2. What can I do if my site is not mobile-friendly?

If your site failed Google’s test, you might be using an older theme that’s not responsive. Responsive themes change their layout slightly when someone visits via tablet or mobile phone to ensure that important content like the site title, post titles, and post content can be read on smaller screens.

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.. ” Stroke And Behaviour Changes ” ….

This is a very helpful article on strokes and managing the after-effects. I have to admit I didn’t know much about it before.

Diabetes Sick Days

Thanks for the information. I am type 2, but most of it still is of importance.

Most everyone gets sick once in a while; it’s not uncommon to get a cold or flu or another illness.  However when you have diabetes, your body sees a sickness as a form of a stress and releases hormones to fight the disease.  These hormones can elevate BG and interfere with the effects of insulin.

It is very important to learn how to manage your sick days. You need to come up with a strategy so that when trouble strikes, you’ll be ready.

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1.  Make a sick-day plan.

Set up a special sick-day notebook where you write down your plan.   Alternately, you can write it on a sheet of paper and tape it to the fridge.  In it, include the following information:

1) How often to check BG and ketones level (for the type 1);

2)  Write a list of medications that you have to take;

3)  If…

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Wacky Wednesday….boy I hurt today!

I woke up around 8:30. Slept fairly well, but my pain level today is much higher. My fingers ache something fierce. That is where my first bit of Arthritis showed up. I was in my early 20s and already had Arthritis. I already knew life was unfair. I had Bipolar Disorder, panic and extreme anxiety, OCD, PTSD and ADHD most likely. The BPD is new I think. Though nobody knew what was wrong with me. I just struggled along and tried to isolate myself with a book to lose myself in, but my parents insisted I go outside. That just added to my unhappiness.

To this day I only have a fair idea what happiness is. I loved being pregnant, hated childbirth and loved my kids. That about summed it up. My ex and I had issues even though he was my husband then. I hated marriage. I hated sex. My kids were my life, but even that wasn’t easy for me. I wasn’t the best mother in the world. I don’t know how my girls turned out so nurturing and different from how they were raised.

The Arthritis continued to ravage my body til each joint was inflicted. The mental illnesses were still unknown. I started with other pains in my back and that added Degenerative Disc Disease to my list of chronic illness. I was still in my early 30’s at this time. Now almost half my discs in spine are herniated/ruptured. My Fibromyalgia probably started then as well, but not as bad as it is now. Stress makes it worse and I am stressed to the max right now.

Then came the big breakdown and my first diagnosis was depression. No questions asked just put on an anti-depressant and boom my Bipolar flared full speed ahead. They had to change plans. I was diagnosed by a therapist, not a psychiatrist. Now the psychiatrist was added to the mix and she started with Lithium. Bad, bad choice. I was almost hospitalized because it went toxic. The kindly quote unquote therapist told me that I would never be able to live on my own or make my own decisions. Jerk, I was determined to prove him wrong. He wanted to hospitalize me and try to get the medications regulated, but I had small children and a working husband and no family in the area to watch the kids. I didn’t go. We continued trying other medications, but they kept putting me on anti-depressants and they made the Bipolar worse. Everyone knows that now, but I don’t think they did then.

I went to therapy weekly and eventually had to quit. I got divorced and made it through it without a breakdown which astonished my ex. He had a girlfriend so he wanted it to go through as soon as possible. I will write about the divorce separately.

Fast forward to my job at the call center which just caused my whole life to fall apart. All my disorders hit me at once. I went out on long term disability and am now on SSDI.

• This mornings fasting sugar was 109 although I took it around 10:30.
• I made and ate breakfast. Ham and eggs. I have also had a low carb protein shake for snack.
• Working on my water consumption now. Took my pills, inhaler and nasty adrenal crap.
• We walked a little last night and my body is protesting today.

Tessa

What Are the Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder? By Web MD

What Are the Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder?

In bipolar disorder, the dramatic episodes of high and low moods do not follow a set pattern. Someone may feel the same mood state (depressed or manic) several times before switching to the opposite mood. These episodes can happen over a period of weeks, months, and sometimes even years.

How severe it gets differs from person to person and can also change over time, becoming more or less severe.

Symptoms of mania (“the highs”):

• Excessive happiness, hopefulness, and excitement
• Sudden changes from being joyful to being irritable, angry, and hostile
• Restlessness
• Rapid speech and poor concentration
• Increased energy and less need for sleep
• High sex drive
• Making grand and unrealistic plans
• Showing poor judgment
• Drug and alcohol abuse
• Becoming more impulsive

During depressive periods (“the lows”), a person with bipolar disorder may have:

• Sadness
• Loss of energy
• Feelings of hopelessness or worthlessness
• Not enjoying things they once liked
• Trouble concentrating
• Uncontrollable crying
• Trouble making decisions
• Irritability
• Needing more sleep
• Insomnia
• Appetite changes that make them lose or gain weight
• Thoughts of death or suicide
• Attempting suicide

What Are the Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder? By Web MD

I know I am supposed to be Bipolar Disorder 2 according to my last idiot psychiatrist, but the Hypomania description does NOT fit me. I fit into the Mania description.

Bipolar Disorder — by Web MD

What Are the Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder?

 Bipolar disorder, formerly called manic depression, is a mental illness that brings severe high and low moods and changes in sleep, energy, thinking, and behavior.

People who have bipolar disorder can have periods in which they feel overly happy and energized and other periods of feeling very sad, hopeless, and sluggish. In between those periods, they usually feel normal. You can think of the highs and the lows as two “poles” of mood, which is why it’s called “bipolar” disorder.

The word “manic” describes the times when someone with bipolar disorder feels overly excited and confident. These feelings can also involve irritability and impulsive or reckless decision-making. About half of people during mania can also have delusions (believing things that aren’t true and that they can’t be talked out of) or hallucinations (seeing or hearing things that aren’t there).

“Hypomania” describes milder symptoms of mania, in which someone does not have delusions or hallucinations, and their high symptoms do not interfere with their everyday life.

The word “depressive” describes the times when the person feels very sad or depressed. Those symptoms are similar to depression, a condition in which someone never has manic or hypomanic episodes.

Most people with bipolar disorder spend more time in depressed phases than in manic phases.

Fathers and Daughters…Non-fiction

I don’t know about others, but my father has always terrified me. Even as a full grown grandmom, he still scares me. I live in his house and he is my father and I am the daughter. The dynamic is still there on both of our parts. He tells me what to do as if I am still a little child and since he is always confused and forgets I get the same sermon time after time. Now I can’t blame the man completely since he is 83 years old, but still it aggravates the hell out of me. Getting mad at him and yelling back does nothing because he forgets it.

Now one that is really getting on my nerves is the fact that I have sensitive eyes and can’t read in bright light. It was the same way when I was a child. I understand this is part of the Fibromyalgia. All my childhood I got yelled at for not putting on enough light in his eyes.

Now I get nastily, “You know you can put that light on. I shouldn’t have to tell you.”

I tell him, “Dad it is just enough light for me, my eyes are sensitive to bright light and hurt.”

Now sometimes he doesn’t even REMIND me he just turns the light on high.

We do this game over and over again.  I finally stopped reading downstairs where he is because I was about to go ballistic on him.

Tessa