Early night and lower blood sugars…

This has been a weird day. I couldn’t keep my blood sugars up. For dinner I had a pepperoni roll and ice cream, yes ice cream and my blood sugars are at 167 after 2 hours. So strange.

I was up early after a weird night so don’t think I am going make it much longer. I will miss my 2 favorite shows.

The light is on. I hope I can sleep without marching bands tonight.

All medicines done including my nighttime medications. Between being tired and those pills I should drop off fairly soon. May not stay asleep, but can’t stay awake right now.

I had my Reflexology appointment today. Love getting my feet massaged. It is an alternative medicine like Chiropractors.

Tessa

…… ” Fighting ” …….

This is me, I am not going down without a fight!

Blood Sugars still dropping after eating rather than rising.

I just had my brunch. I started at 116, good number.

I ate eggs, barely a carb or 2 and drank an Atkins DayBreak drink which has 10 carbs and only 3 are counted due to the 7 fiber grams. I am feeling a little funny so just checked again. I have dropped even more to 108. Now that is a first, but I didn’t consume many carbs. When you are always high, just a little drop will feel like low blood sugar. I don’t want to add something else and create a jump of the BS count. Because then I will start at a disadvantage when we eat later. At least the drink has protein and vitamins and other supplements since I ran out of multi-vitamins. I still take fish oil and vitamin D extra. I have other supplements in there but hate to have to keep swallowing more and more pills.

Tessa

Quote of the day

Some days that is all I can do.

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Earlier rising, but still no worms…

After my glorious crazy night I am now up at 8 AM. I am glad I had the light on for last night’s show seemed so real. Not much sleep and had to take another sleep aid to get to sleep.

I have downed about 25 ounces of water and all my medications even the nasty adrenal gland stuff.

My fasting sugar is 86, nice. I only had the salad for dinner last night and the half of a Glipizide, my Diabetes medication which probably helped. I am spreading my food out more and looking for low-carb options. Hard since I am so picky. I hate the healthier breads and stuff. My son wanted to grocery shopping tonight and start looking for the right foods, but I have a Reflexology appointment right in that time frame. Not sure we will feel like going later.

I haven’t lost anymore weight, but it is coming off by the inches as my pants keep falling down. A sure sign of some loss of some kind. No belt loops for a belt to cinch the waist.

Yesterday was rainy and no walk, but we did walk the store some so I did get some in while getting my prescription refill and walking from the parking lot since my son parks far away on purpose to make me walk. I use my handicap placard when I can, but he isn’t buying that. He does it for love. I don’t complain too much. He is the only one who really knows how to handle me and he has BP as well. It is better if our moods don’t sync. We both withdraw when depressed. At least he has most of his rage issues under control. He used to break everything.

My wrist hurts, noticed it last night while typing my middle of the night parade post. It is my dominant hand. And my left upper arm hurts. Hurt to wash my hair in the shower this morning. Can’t tell if it is the Fibromyalgia or something else. I have a problem with the rotator cuff and Carpal Tunnel Syndrome in both hands. Could be that. That is one of the bad things about Fibromyalgia. It can mimic other things. The ER loves to blame everything on it. They are going to kill someone some day because they would rather blame everything on Fibromyalgia rather than finding out if it is another problem really going on. From all my research it seems I had the Fibromyalgia since I was a kid along with my Bipolar Disorder, panic/anxiety and OCD, New diagnoses added in my adulthood, more recently. I also have PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder and some of the other personality disorders, but they decided to just choose the main one. I am paranoid as all get out. Even though I take anxiety medication (Clonazepam) 4 mg total for day my anxiety is rising and I bite my nails, my skin and sit here and rub my hands together all the time as if washing them. Weird!

I just fed the meowing, annoying cat. She eats 2 small cans a day and a bowlful of dry. She hates people food, even meat. And no milk for her either.

I did my shower, but haven’t gotten dressed yet. Will have to dress soon though since I need to go downstairs and eat my breakfast or rather brunch.

Tessa

21 Years Old — A Self Portrait

Another great post from Zoe and it seems so familiar. I always smiled even when I hurt on the outside.

I love a parade!

But not through my bedroom for heaven’s sake. Yeah I am dreaming again. Noise in my ears and a parade of people marching through. The light is on. Nobody really here.

I can’t sleep more than a few minutes. I have to keep turning the BiPap machine off and getting up.

I feel strange. I am not sure what mood I am currently in. If I am not careful I will get dressed and leave this joint (the house). When things get too much for me I leave home in the middle of the night just to get out of this room.

I did go to sleep early. Oh I know, dreaming about my ex-husband again. Not violent this time.

I just took another sleep aid.

Great here is the cat to serenade me.

Tessa

Standing in a corner! (non-fiction)

Standing in a Corner – by Teresa Smeigh

I was definitely a goody-two-shoes when I was younger. I was mostly terrified of getting in trouble and it didn’t happen often because I didn’t want to be punished. So of the 3 of us I was usually the better behaved.

Now the one thing I was guilty of was siding with either my brother or my sister in a situation. I was the oldest and I guess they just never thought to gang up on me.

Anyhow one day in Kindergarten (6 years old) I was told to not do something. I wish I could remember what it was at this point, but the memory of the exact circumstances eludes me. Now I might be a goody-two-shoes, but that didn’t mean I couldn’t be stubborn when I wanted to. And I do mean stubborn. I would forget about getting in trouble when my mind was made up.

I was yelled at to stop doing whatever it was and I smartly told her NO! This stunned her because I was always a good, respectful kid.

Then she ordered me to the corner. Again I told her NO!

She practically dragged me over to the corner and I was told to stay. I stayed, but my face was not facing the corner. She finally gave up. She probably figured she made as much progress as she was going to in the situation.

Tessa

Fibromyalgia is a disorder that is characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain – by Timothy Miller

By Timothy Miller

Fibromyalgia is a disorder that is characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain. Many people can get confused about the actual meaning of a fibromyalgia diagnosis, thinking it is simply a ‘catchall’ type of diagnosis. This is not actually true. For example, rheumatoid arthritis is distinguished from other types of arthritis because of its specific symptoms. Fibromyalgia, however, is a syndrome, which means it has a specific set of symptoms that the person experiences as well as specific signs that a health care practitioner can identify. Learn from top health experts about the key factors behind fibromyalgia, the disorders potentially linked to it and more with these resources today:

Fibromyalgia is a specific, non-degenerative, chronic, non-inflammatory, non-progressive, true systemic pain condition. Disorders potentially linked to fibromyalgia include depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder. Women are more likely to develop fibromyalgia and symptoms than are men. The symptoms of fibromyalgia frequently begin following a physical trauma, infection, surgery or a significant psychological stress. In some situations, the symptoms gradually accumulate over time and do not have a single triggering event. Many people who are diagnosed with fibromyalgia also have temporomandibular joint disorders (TMJ), tension headaches, anxiety, depression and/or irritable bowel syndrome. The symptoms of fibromyalgia include: widespread pain, which is typically described as a continuous, dull ache that has lasted for three months. In order for the pain to be considered widespread, it must occur on both sides of the body as well as above and below the waist. Fatigue is a common symptom for those diagnosed with fibromyalgia. People with fibromyalgia often wake up tired, even after sleeping for long periods of time and their sleep is frequently disrupted by pain. Other sleep disorders have been noted as well, such as sleep apnea and/or restless legs syndrome. Another significant symptom is cognitive difficulties, which is often referred to as “fibro fog” as it impairs the ability to pay attention, focus and concentrate on mental tasks. Also depression, headaches, cramping and pain in their lower abdomen have been known to occur.

It has not been determined what the exact cause of fibromyalgia is, but many health professionals believe it involves a variety of different factors working together. Some of the factors include; genetics, because fibromyalgia often runs in families, an infection may trigger or aggravate fibromyalgia and/or a physical or emotional trauma, such as post-traumatic stress disorder, which is been linked to fibromyalgia. There are number of theories relating to why fibromyalgia causes pain. For example, some researchers have reported that repeated nerve stimulations cause the brain of someone with fibromyalgia to change. The change involves an abnormal increase in the level of the neurotransmitters that signal pain to the brain. Also, the pain receptors in the brain appear to develop a type of memory of the pain, which it becomes more sensitive to, meaning it can lead to an overreaction of pain signals.

The risk factors for fibromyalgia typically include; being a woman, having a relative also diagnosed with fibromyalgia and if you have a rheumatic disease, such as lupus or rheumatoid arthritis. It is often difficult to diagnose fibromyalgia and many people often go years before a diagnosis is made. Doctors previously checked 18 specific points on your body to see how many points were painful when firm pressure was applied. The current guidelines for diagnosing fibromyalgia no longer require this type of exam, instead the diagnosis can be made if you have had widespread pain for greater than three months and without an underlying medical condition that may be the cause of your pain. There are no specific lab tests that can be done to confirm the diagnosis of fibromyalgia, however, your doctor may run a variety of tests to rule out any other conditions that may have similar symptoms. For example, a blood test is typically done to check your complete blood count, erythrocyte sedimentation rate and thyroid function.

In general, treatments for fibromyalgia include both medication and self-care. The emphasis is on minimizing symptoms and improving general health. No one treatment works for all symptoms.

There are a variety of medications that may be prescribed to help relieve the pain associated with fibromyalgia and to help improve sleep patterns. Some of the common types of medications include: over-the-counter pain relievers or your physician may prescribe pain relievers, such as tramadol. A narcotic is not usually prescribed for alleviating the pain of fibromyalgia because they can often lead to a dependence on the medication and may worsen the pain over time. Antidepressants are sometimes prescribed to help lower the fatigue and pain that is associated with fibromyalgia and anti-seizure medications may occasionally be prescribed to help reduce certain types of pain.

Many people who suffer with fibromyalgia find relieve for the pain as well as management for their stress, through alternative therapies. Some of the most common alternative therapies used to treat the symptoms of fibromyalgia include; massage therapy, meditation and or yoga. One of the most important things you can do to help relieve the symptoms of fibromyalgia is self-care. Self-care is essential to help avoid stress, overexertion and fatigue. It is critical that you get enough sleep, because fatigue is one of the primary symptoms of fibromyalgia. Regular exercise will help to decrease the symptoms of fibromyalgia. Daily exercise, such as stretching, walking, bicycling and swimming are excellent ways to help reduce your pain as well as help you sleep better at night. Although it is important to avoid overexertion, it is important to remain at least moderately active. You should also maintain a healthy lifestyle, which includes eating healthy, limiting your daily intake of caffeine and avoiding tobacco and alcohol.